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i have one month exactly and i feel sick, i have a heavy head and a heavy heart and i don't know what to do anymore. i wish i could feel okay with myself but i need love and others to get me there. sometimes life is too confusing and complicated. on the plus side, it's getting lighter outside (although the sun is deceiving) and i'm counting down days as if they don't really matter. talks of the future and cv's and people and life with pia, that was nice stuff. okay, i'm gonna try sleep early, help myself recover from this cold.